Love. 2 (Length Warning!)

Certain questions have plagued humanity since the beginning. Questions such as:

What is God?

What happens when we die?

And What is Love?

No one could ever explain Love sufficiently enough for me. Until I myself experienced it, it was indescribable. I take that back. Even after I’ve experienced it is indescribable. Until I fell in love, I never believed it possible to die of a broken heart. Now that I have love, I assure you that I could not live without it. You may think I am exaggerating but let me assure you: Though I may not die upon the instant, I would waste away, fading into nothing.

Some may say that what I feel is not love. That no one who has never dated several people could know; they have nothing to which to compare their feelings. Well let me tell the infamous Every-one something. It is possible. It is love. I know it with every fiber of my being. It is Every-one who creates the doubts and plants them in my mind, niggling away at my thoughts, though never my heart. My emotions have been in a turmoil because Every-one knows that you can’t marry your first love; it isn’t really love. Every-one knows you don’t fall in love at 19. Well, Every-one knows a lot of things. I am sure Every-one is more wise than I. Because Every-one knows the world is flat. Every-one knows the Universe revolves around the Earth. Every-one knows the Earth doesn’t grow. And Every-one knows that anyone who has not experienced some minor heart-break could possibly know what Love is.

Some may say that Every-one is correct. Some may say that I have nothing to which to compare my feelings, but I do. I have had crushes. I have felt sexual attraction to other people besides Luke. It is true that I never dated anyone other than him. But I’m certain I know the difference between Infatuation and Love. Between Lust and Love. Between a crush and Love. Some may say that I can’t be in love because I have never before been heart broken. You are wrong. I have been heart broken, though it was my fault, though I was helped along with Every-one. I have been heart broken. I thought it had been plucked from my chest and smashed to smithereens on the floor. And then someone reached inside me and twisted all the other organs into a knot. But that knot could not fill the empty space I felt. I have never cried so much in my entire life. Not when any family member or friend or pet died. Not when I’d been hurt physically. Never. I had never felt so miserable in my entire life. I won’t go into details. I shall not even tell you what happened, though Luke knows what I’m talking about, I think. He was the one who held me while I cried.

So let me tell you, I know the answer to What is Love. Though I am a writer, I would be hard pressed to express it in words. I’ve written poems about it. They are mere shadows of the heart of the matter. No word, no picture could express my feelings. None. Love isn’t a big enough word to encompass all my emotions. Love isn’t big enough to contain the sentiments felt by my heart of my soul. Only someone else who has experienced Love could understand. I know what Love is. Do you? Does Every-one?

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Afterthought:

Love. Support. Desire. Passion. Encouragement. Affection. Tenderness. Caring. Compassion. Warmth. Strength. Devotion. Value. Fondness. Friendship. Esteem. Respect. Trust. Doting. Loyalty. Regard. Attachment. Acceptance. Intertwining fates. Bound Destinies.

To me, Love isn’t big enough to include fate, destiny. It isn't big enough for forever, for eternity.

It is true that I sometimes feel anger, irritation, annoyance, worry, frustration, stress, exasperation, and disappointment. However, It doesn't change my affection, my desire, my trust, my caring, etc. And it would never sway my love. So I say again: Do you know Love? Maybe you do. Does Every-one? Somehow, I don't think so.